Today I was reflecting on life and I felt compelled to write. This post is for all my friends, especially on Facebook, who have been following our life’s journey. I call it a journey because it most certainly has been. You have stuck with us through thick and thin. You have seen the big waves build and recede in our life. I have been open with our struggles and our failures. As you know I have always been very open about our strong faith in Yahweh. I know many of you have differing lifestyle views and religious views yet you still stick around. You still listen. You still encourage us on our voyage.

I have been through so many struggles in life I now know what it means when it is written, “He who is without sin cast the first stone.” I have so much sin in my life and have had so much filth within me I can only stand at a place of gratefulness for the process. I am grateful that I do not have to live with the shame I once had.


I feel so grateful to be surrounded by people who have a genuine interest in our family. I feel grateful that you allow me to express my love for Christ Yeshua without disdain or rebuke. Facebook can be such a negative, hard place. However, it is a place I have chosen to use for sharing our life and the goodness of our maker upon us. In a time when there are so many opportunities to argue and throw tomatoes we want to be a family that just lives life every day to its fullest. We want to share our life to inspire others. We are not perfect, but we are forgiven. When things go wrong and we make mistakes, some bigger than others, or make wrong decisions out of straight rebellion, I like to tell my kids, “TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY!” Yes, everyday provides a new opportunity to start fresh. If you only knew my past it is safe to say I have walked in many pairs of shoes, some I willing put on and others were put on me without asking. I have walked the pathway of rebellion, anger, conceit, the world and partying to the point of self-destruction and I hate to admit it, but yes once living as a religious pharisee. I have to say that it is my most shameful act, well there is one that is more shameful, but I shutter at the thought of it still. Once again I am thankful for God’s grace.

I am a woman who has been broken of of pride. I have been made low. There is nothing good within me that was not first given to me by maker and God Yeshua.

So back to my reason for writing…

When I think about life I realize that I don’t have all the answers and I do not know all the ways of God. His ways are not my ways and that is a good thing. As I write this blog post I am reminded about all the people he has put into our path that have brought us so much comfort and encouragement, both Christian and non-Christian. I know some newbies might be reading this and saying, “Where are you going with this lady?” And if you are a legalistic you might be having problems with this post from the very start. However, I would like to say that I do not get to call the shots or make the rules that pertain to living and abundant life.

Where am I going with this?

It seems that there are too many haters on both sides of the field those who want to stone anyone with strong Christian values or those who are living contrary to scripture. However, this is my view. When Yeshua (Jesus) walked the earth He ministered and ate with those who Christians today might consider heathens. However, he completely rejected and spoke harshly of the religious pharisees (those who wore religion on the external, yet inside they were dirty vessels). He had a tender heart for the lost, he spoke lovingly to woman with “many husbands”, he spoke encouragement to the tax collector, he stopped an adulterous woman from being stoned. All this He did in love for their soul and spirit, for their person. His message was one rooted in love, it was a message of repentance and salvation that says, “Come to me all who are weary laden and I will give you rest. Whoever thirsts He has spiritual drink that will leave you NEVER thirsty again. I have tasted and I have seen that the Lord is good. If I have experienced thirst it was not because fresh water was not available, but because I pushed the cup away. So maybe I am not just writing to my non-Christian friends, but also to my Christian readers as well.

Along our journey I can not tell you how generous the non-Christian community has been to our family. Yes, those who are not Christians have lovingly sowed into our family’s finances with gifts abundant both tangible and intangible. You might balk at that. My response is that God will use whom He will use to sustain a nation and a people. Look at Joseph he was the right hand man of Pharoah and Egyptian or in the Christian understanding a pagan, yet through Pharoah’s wealth and status the house of Israel was preserved from famine and pestilence. Why was this? I can not say I have some great theological answer because I do not have one here today. I can only imagine it is to keep his people humble. I will pause to say, thank you to the many Christian friends who have given of their time and resources as well. You are not forgotten and you are appreciated just as well. I know that even though we share the same faith many of your lives look much different than our lifestyle and yet you still embrace us. I am so grateful for your friendship.


I write to make someone smile, to make someone think, to stir the heart, to encourage rather than discourage random acts of kindness even to those you may not always agree with.


Have a good day!

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